Changing a behavioral habit can literally feel like you are withdrawing from a drug habit.
In a way, you are.
In our early developmental years, we worked out how to receive attention based on how our needs were met...or not met.
90 % of the time the pleasure hormone, dopamine, was unconsciously anchored to a behaviour that ensured we received THAT attention.
The behaviour then became a habit.
In the absence of that habit, dopamine creates a craving so strong you will seek out THAT attention unconsciously …
“W.T.F …I’ve done so much work on myself, how can I still be experiencing the same B.S”?
I must hear this line several times a week.
It’s also a question I use to ask myself, continuously.
It became the driving force that had me travel many emotional, physical and professional miles to find the answer.
When we arrive at these “Life Junctions” and are standing at the doorway of a W.T.F moment....it can feel like we’ve reached a threshold of hopelessness, frustration, denial or despair.
The Truth is, its …
I remember looking at the black board and feeling the life force drain from my body.
It felt like I had been swallowed by a black hole and spat out on a planet where nothing and no-one made any sense.
My 7-year-old self had come from a foreign country, I spoke with a different accent and had been taught how to read phonetically; spelling a word the way it sounds.
In my early developmental years I felt stupid, dumb... the black sheep.
I saw things differently. What was obvious to me wasn't to everyone else.
What others have experienced...
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